Don’t worry.

In Uncategorized on September 14, 2012 at 12:44 am

My personal statement and essays will be mindblowingly amazing. Everything will work out the way I want.


Snippets of Me

In Uncategorized on June 19, 2012 at 4:41 pm

It’s been a while since I’ve written a post for my WordPress blog. Over a year. in fact.

A lot of things have happened over that year. Back when started writing for this blog, I was a sophomore who had just taken the AP Biology exam but now I am a soon-to-be senior with college applications just around the corner.

It’s frightening as it is exciting to know that I’ll be making one of the most important decisions in my life within the next few months. All of this is so overwhelming, and I’m still unsure of what I truly want for myself. Heck, I don’t even know myself that well yet. But in that way, I’m glad that this whole college application process will allow me to find out a little bit more about myself.

I recently started to work on my personal statement and found myself completely stumped. I wrote one about my childhood hobby of collecting pressed coins but ended up scrapping it completely. I’m starting another one about my observation of cicadas but have no idea how that will turn out.

It’s kind of hard. I really enjoy writing, but how do I express myself in just 500 words? Even my notebook that I write in everyday probably can’t describe the person I am. But if I had to try and do so, I think it would look somewhat like this:

I am full of contradictions — I am shy but love interacting with people; I am dreamy but very practical in my approach towards life.
I am probably the most unorganized person you will every meet, but for some reason, everyone just assumes that I’m super organized. Not true.
I am extremely sentimental. I daydream all the time about my childhood and still somewhat believe in fairytale happy endings.
I’m an introvert. This doesn’t mean I’m antisocial or reticent. I socialize well with others and am capable of speaking in front of people. I just need alone-time for myself to recharge after all these things.
Interacting with younger kids brings me so much joy.
I love teaching children. Even though I’m not that knowledgeable, I think there’s so much value in transferring the little things I know to younger peers. And seeing them change and develop as a result of my teaching is so rewarding.
I am liberal and open to almost anything.
I enjoy eating and often go on “food expeditions” with my friends.
I love making things with my hands — sewing, knitting, crocheting, making dolls/teddy bears.
I love God and am so grateful for the things he has done for me.
I like soffe shorts.
I am curious about so many things; I literally spend hours on Wikipedia reading random articles like those about the Little Boy Bomb, Queen Nefertiti, conspiracy theories…
I think college should be a place where I can explore different areas, find new interests, and basically embark on a whole new journey of learning.
I sometimes come off as cold or distant to some people, but it’s not because I don’t like them. I’m kind of shy, so I’m sometimes really quiet.
I have really dark jet-black hair that kind of looks blue in the sun.
I love my dog, Winkie to death.
I love taking walks in the middle of the night.
I value independence and my time alone. It’s not that I don’t like other people — I do. It’s just that I want to know that I am capable of doing the things I care about.
My favorite ice cream flavor is vanilla.
My favorite food is lasagna. Or beef ravioli. Really depends on the day.
I can’t live without coffee. But I only drink it with milk + syrup/sugar.
Now that I think about it I really don’t get why I started making this list.
I realize that even this list can only provide a mere snippet of who I am.

And last, it’s 1:40 AM, but I’m really hungry right now. I should go grab some cereal.


In Conciousness on June 7, 2011 at 3:33 pm

I have a dog named Winkie. He’s a white Pomeranian and is almost two years old. I love him to death and when he perks up his ears, sticks out his tongue, and wags his tail when I come back home, I can’t help but give him a kiss and a treat. He’s even cuter when he lies down his back and extends his paws to me, telling me to scratch his stomach. He’s simply adorable, I tell you.

But there’s one problem. When my dog gets violent, boy does he get violent. Like most other Pomeranian dogs, he is very vicious. He is especially protective of his food and all objects around him; he considers them to be exclusively his property, and he does anything to protect what he considers to be his stuff. By anything I mean even biting me.

Yesterday, after I finished eating my peach yogurt, I gave the empty cup to my dog to lick on. Of course, being the food junkie he is, Winkie literally started licking and tearing apart the cup, and there I was next to him, patting him on his head because of how adorable he looked. Then, out of nowhere, my dog suddenly turns bad and bites me real hard on my arm. (It’s swollen right now, and it still kind of hurts…) After he bit me, I felt a pang of betrayal and anger at my dog for doing so. I had given nothing but love and care for Winkie and yet he had bitten me that hard… I have to say I was pretty disappointed.

I decided to be angry at my dog, but it lasted for two hours, and I forgave him when he snuggled up next to me in my bed. Every time this happened, it has always been the same. I manage to forgive him every time. I wonder if this is how parents feel about their children… LOLL